Merry Christmas!

2 Months Old!

Nixon is 2 months old today!

2 Months Old!

Nixon is 2 months old today!

 

Nixon's First Bottle!

Today I got to bottle feed Nixon for the first time. Until now she was getting her feedings through a tube (what the NICU nurses refer to as a gavage feeding), and I was so excited and anxious to be able to interact with her during her feeds!

Hopefully soon we’ll be able to start breastfeeding, but for now I’m happy that she’s getting my milk and she’s been gaining at least an ounce a day. Soon she’ll be a chubby bunny! 

1 Month Old!

Nixon is 1 month old today = )

Hardest day of my life

So today, just one day after our daughter was born, Nixon had to be given chest compressions and oxygen to be revived because she stopped breathing. God was watching over her, and she made it through, but where the doctors touched her to do the compressions there is an open hole, because the skin was so thin and delicate that it tore open. It’s so difficult to see and know all of the pain she is going through. I wish I could take it for her. No baby should have to suffer this much.

I’ve been pretty depressed, and worried, and all I can do is keep praying to God, pleading with him that I need my baby more than he does. The hard reality is that Nixon might not make it, and even if she does, being 3 months premature could leave her with serious developmental problems. She doesn't deserve this!

Because of the severity of my pre-eclampsia I’ve only JUST gotten to even see her, and it will probably be another week before I can hold her. She is so small. When I put my finger in her hand, her hand only wraps halfway around it. It’s truly a miracle that she’s alive, and I know we are very blessed, but I can’t stop crying.  I just want to kiss and hold my baby.

The First Picture

This is the first look at the Peanut that I got after she was born:

Her hand doesn't even make it around Adam's finger...

Happy Birthday Nixon

Today my little angel was born. She came three months early, and she’s only 2lbs 5oz and 13.5 inches long.

God Bless and Protect my tiny little angel.

 10 perfect little piggies

 10 beautiful fingers

Adam

Louisiana

Suffice to say Louisiana was not for us. While my husband and I may categorize ourselves as “country,” there are a number of things we realized that we could not live without once we attempted to settle into the slow country life we thought we wanted.

1. Mexican food- not enough can be said about the necessity of good Mexican food.  
2. Grocery stores OTHER than Super WalMart
3. Bagels
4. Sidewalks
5. Humidity < 80%
6. Straight white teeth
7. Beaches (oil free ones)
8. Smoke free bars
9. Dog parks (and doggie doo-doo laws for that matter)
10. ALL OF OUR FRIENDS!!!

While it would have been nice to buy a HUGE house with acres of land where we could hunt and fish and enjoy the great outdoors, the tradeoffs just weren’t there. We are SO happy to be back in the Golden State with the people that we love, in the climate that we love, on the coast that we love. I couldn’t dream of a better place to raise my baby girl!